Six: Radiant Light Within: My Life with Jacques Lusseyran, Blind Hero of the French Resistance
Descent into Darkness
I remember sort of trying to tell people when I was a very young child that what you see behind your eyelids is not "just light from outside " it's the Light Coming from Inside. But even now, very clearly I remember sensing their fear: Fear is deeply dark in color, and feeling. It gives off toxic fumes the way tar does. I can sense it immediately, and what people are capable of doing out of fear, I've learned, is often unfathomably cruel.
Physical Light has a delayed reaction to Inner Light. Inner Light IS always, it never changes. I think Jaques came to me as another layer of a Shield of this Light.
Suffering
The Radiant Light Within is inextricably connected to suffering. By fourteen I knew Jesus WAS Radiant Light, and that he suffers. That's right. Present Tense. Suffers. In this world I observed that the Greater the Suffering the more intense the Light Within, and more Intense my Inner Sight became.